Remembering An Unfinished Life

Tomorrow, June 19th, would have been my oldest sister's 52nd birthday.

I'm at a loss for words. I thought I might write about what a wonderful person she was. But there isn't enough blog space to even begin to tell you...

Then I thought I would write as if I were speaking to her, telling her about the events in life that she's missed since October 14, 2006. But then I began to wonder--who am I to decide what would or wouldn't be important to her? or that in 'some way' she already knows what her friends and family have been doing these almost 3 years without her?

Then I thought about how much I miss her and would love to pick up the phone just to call her and hear her voice...I became really depressed after thinking that, for you see, the very last time I spoke to Rhonda was from my cell phone-- 3pm on the Friday before she died. I remember my last words with her... "glad someone (a nurse) is there with you" "hope to see you soon" "I love you..."

So in my search of how to best explain my unexplainable grief, in my feeble attempt to describe her unfinished and exemplementary life, in remembering my sweet 'little big sister,' I will simply repeat the last words I said to her...

"I'm glad Someone is with you."

"Hope to see you soon."

"I love you."

Love,

Your big little sister